Reality of a relapse.

Life took over and I needed a break from the blogging world, but I’m back. 

I find blogging my ‘escape’ and I need that right now. After such a busy few months I’m now in the middle of a relapse. 

For me, admitting to not only others but myself that I’m not ok is hard, like it is for many others, however I’ve took that step and I’m glad. I’ve registered with a new GP and I finally felt listened to after months of not being listened to by a GP. I’ve found both the mix of medication and therapy to work for me. The medication side of this is hard, not every antidepressant works for everyone. After over a year of being on one type of antidepressant and it not working despite dose changes, I’ve been moved onto new medication. 

As many people on antidepressants will know the side effects are horrible and yes, I’m in the middle of this. However, it’s important to know that it will end. 
In the past few weeks I’ve found I’ve not been feeling myself, although I still laugh and smile in front of people, on the inside I’m lost. 




A person can go through all the therapy in the world and learn hundreds of skills to help them cope better when they’re struggling, however, sometimes despite this those skills don’t work every time. When your in the depth of a relapse it’s often hard to find motivation and energy, I find myself wanting to stay in bed or not wanting to leave the house, and sometimes I can challenge this and I will get out despite how I’m feeling... BUT sometimes I allow myself to stay in bed because that’s ok too, you’ve got to listen to your body. 

I’ve been in this situation before, I know things will get better again and I know I will be okay again. I also know it will take time and I’ve got to work hard to get back to where I was before this.


 ‘It’s ok to not be ok’




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