The road to recovery ❤️
One question I often think about is:
‘Why is there still so much stigma around mental health?’
I’m 18 and have suffered with mental health issues for a number of years and one thing that would be helpful is for more people to be more understanding and less to be judgemental.
This year has been a hard year for me, however the past few months have been some of the hardest. A lot of things can happen in someone’s personal life that other people don’t see, know about or understand. The last few months in particular have been a struggle, in which I’ve struggled both mentally and physically.
In June was when I first started counselling and I was very sceptical about this, I didn’t know what to expect and I didn’t think it would work. However, after 4 months, in October I finished counselling. At the beginning of the sessions one of the main things that was established was I tried to fix everyone else and their problems and wasn’t focusing on myself. At the end of my sessions I was at a point where I was focusing more on myself and my recovery. Another positive I got out of counselling was I now understand my thoughts and feelings more and I understand more what triggers certain thoughts and feelings.
In June was when I first started counselling and I was very sceptical about this, I didn’t know what to expect and I didn’t think it would work. However, after 4 months, in October I finished counselling. At the beginning of the sessions one of the main things that was established was I tried to fix everyone else and their problems and wasn’t focusing on myself. At the end of my sessions I was at a point where I was focusing more on myself and my recovery. Another positive I got out of counselling was I now understand my thoughts and feelings more and I understand more what triggers certain thoughts and feelings.
By no means am I 100% better, whilst in counselling I had a lot of blips, I stopped taking my medication, I started self-harming again, having negative thoughts, I became extremely anxious and low at times too. However, I didn’t give up and I carried on going.
At my most recent psychiatrist appointment I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and this has been extremely hard and a lot for me to take in. I’ve read countless amounts of leaflets, read a lot online and spoken to people who have been diagnosed too, however I think it will take time for me to ‘accept’ this is part of who I am right now. I started taking my medication again in October and I have now noticed a slight difference.
One thing I’ve learnt over the past few months in particular is who I can talk to, who I can rely on and who will always be there and this is what I’m grateful for 💖
I'm glad that you have found those you can talk to and rely on to be there. Those people are priceless. It sounds like you are growing and changing and moving forward. I'm glad to hear that you are open to getting help. Sometimes people don't even want to look at their difficulties, much less try to work on them. So I applaud you! Keep working on yourself, because you are worth it!
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