A year difference...


**TW - SELF HARM**

Isn’t it crazy how much can change in a year... 

This time last year I was being referred to a psychiatrist and was probably at one of my lowest points, I didn’t see a point to life and I was self-harming regularly. At this point last year was when I was put onto medication and was told counselling would be the best way forward for me. 
Months passed and the medication started to work, I was going through counselling and I actually started to see a future for myself. The counselling was helping me understand my thoughts and feelings a lot more and it helped me identify triggers, which was a huge step for me.

Fast forward to now, a year on, although I’m not fully ‘recovered’ I am a much more confident person. The only professional I am now under is a mental health nurse, but I will be discharged in 2 weeks and will be put onto the waiting list for CBT! Yay! 
Therapy and medication has worked for me, I still have bad days like everyone else, but compared to this time last year when everyday was a ‘bad’ day I am much happier. 
I now know how to cope and manage the thoughts and feelings I have in a much more positive way and this was one of the first things I wanted to achieve when starting counselling. 

This time last year I often wondered, ‘will this ever get better?’ and now I know, no matter how hard things get, they will always get better. 
One thing I’ve learnt is to not let a mental health illness take over you, you take over the illness ❤️


The road to recovery is a hard one, it’s full of relapses, blips and lots of tears but that’s only natural. Don’t beat yourself up! 

My hard work and determination to get through this has got me to the place I am at today 💭💛

So if anyone is looking for a sign that things will get better this is it... if you want things to get better they will! 

                            

Keep going, show everyone your strength

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